caroline from New Hampshire

I am a 70 year old woman and oldest of 5. In 07 I lost my spouse to cancer but through his illness I was his caregiving taking him to his treatments dealing with him in hospital then when he got home cared for him until he passed in oct 07. Never thought of myself always of him to make sure he was comfortable and taken care of. His name was John but cancer took a toll on him and also of me too but I was married to him 34 years and I wanted to care for him. After he passed I still felt like I was at a loss but now I do know I did my best