Paul from Michigan

In December 2007 my wife was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer at the time I was already taking care of my father now I have 2 people to care for and they gave my wife maybe 2 months to live the last week of January she had to be rushed to the hospital while she was in ICU fighting for her life I still had to work and take care of my father and go be with my wife in the hospital on Sunday night I got on the hospital bed with my wife and I told her to let go and go be with God that she would be in a better place her best friend from work and I sat with her all night and around 4am I could feel her spirit leave her body and I knew she had gone home to god later that morning I spoke with her doctors and told them that I wanted to go ahead and pull the plug her friend and I left the room so I could go tell the family of my decision while the doctor gave the nurse the order to take care of my wish and while I was informing the family the nurse called my cell phone and told me that I needed to get back to ICU when I got back to my wife surprise room she had expired before the nurse got the word from me to carry out my wish I became numb and felt lost and now had to go home and tell my father who loved my wife what happened and then had to deal with him being very upset on top of my grief when I arrived home and went to enter the house I couldn't go into the house for the longest time 2 weeks later I lost my father and I went into a deep depression and for months I wouldn't eat or go outside I became a hermit in my home I just thank the Lord that I had enough of being in this mood and being a disabled veteran I went to my VA doctor and told him I needed help and within minutes there was a head doctor there to talk to me and he said I was 1 straw away from breaking the camels back so to speak I was already suffering from PTSD so it was very important to get me into treatment so they put me on antidepressants and it took me a good 2 years before I was able to get off the medicine and be able to get on with my life and move on it was a very difficult 2 years it was hard enough for my wife and I to work full time and take care of my sick father and then my wife at the same time just became to much for me to handle on top of the PTSD I'very since moved on and feel much better.